I miss my Mama, God rest her soul.
I miss her laughter the most.
I miss the way she made me laugh, even when I was angry.
I miss the way she would comfort me, especially when I cried.
I miss the way she supported me. Even when I doubted myself, she never did.
I miss the way we would laugh at the silliest things.
I miss our weekly lunch every Sunday; sometimes I find myself going to our favourite restaurant just to reminisce.
I miss our cinema dates, she used to watch movies with me even when she was no longer feeling well.
Wow! I just realized how selfish I've been. And here comes the regrets for the things that I did not do while she was still here...
I wish I could've taken her to Hong Kong and other places that she wanted to visit - she really wanted to go to Bangkok.
I wish I had asked my Papa Peter while he was here to take us with him to Italy after his one-month vacation here in 2002.
I wish I could've bought her that car she always wanted - even though neither of us really knew how to drive.
I wish I could've taken her shopping for all the stuff that she wanted but couldn't buy.
And my most fervent wish...
I wish I could see her one more time... if only to tell her how much I love her and miss her so.
Yes, I will always miss my Mama. My heart yearns for the day when I will see her again. Until then, I will wait.
I pray that she is with God now and she's happily waiting for me to join her in Heaven.
I pray that she knows how much I love her and miss her.
I pray that God's will be done in my life and that He will take me to see my Mama when I leave this world. In Jesus' name I pray. Thank You, Lord Jesus. Amen.
